Right now, at this moment, I am feeling quite stressed. I accepted a job with a company located 94 miles from where I live and right now I commute back and forth every day - the cost of gas alone is stressful. My wife is expecting our second child and doesn't want to go back to work when he is born, and takes off from work frequently (under FMLA, so she doesn't get paid), so money is tight. I feel like there is the weight of world on my shoulders, and I know that is nothing compared to the weight of the sin Jesus took upon himself, but as a human I struggle with the stress. 2 Corinthians 4: 8-9 reads, "We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed or broken. We are perplexed, but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going." (NLT)
As a man, I am surrounded by images of strong men who can take on anything the world throws at them, pillars of strength that everyone can come to and count on, who can shrug off stress and their woes and be leaders of their families. In reality, I need to be able to go to someone and count on them to help me when I need it. I am so happy that Jesus is there for me. My biggest challenge has been to just open up and talk to God. Philippians 4:6-7 says, "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." (NLT)
Today as I felt that weight creeping up on me I prayed. I asked Jesus to give me strength to endure, to guid me in the way I should go, and the wisdom to heed his voice when I hear it. I asked him to help me guide my family in the way he would have us go and to set the example that they might also live in his word. It is reassuring that as a man, there is something bigger than me, and someone I can go to when I want to feel like a child for a moment in the arms of the Father.